Sunday, October 27, 2013

A Shadow Of My Former--And Future--Self

So (a high school teacher friend wrote recently that "so" is the new "like," and I think it's true: a ubiquitous, reflexive and usually unnecessary sound we make at the beginning of an articulation of thought) last week I played songs about writing, which included a couple of  titular Ghosts ("Ghost Writer," "Ghost Writing").  As this week includes Halloween, it got me to thinking about doing a show (I do a radio show on wool.fm on Tuesdays, from noon til two-ish) based on that, which was my favorite holiday when I was a kid.  That started me reflecting on my kidhood: who I was as a kid--and at various other stages of life--the people who were around who no longer are, the people who are around but no longer are,  and the like.  I realized that ghosts are everywhere, everywhen, and haunt us in ways we often don't consider.

Life is filled with shadows and light, a chiaroscuro of people and events, of selves and selves and selves (I told you last week that I really liked triplets as examples); people immensely important to us leave us, sometimes temporarily, eventually permanently: they become ghosts, shades, shadows of remembrance.  I'm pretty sure that I don't believe in ectoplasmic manifestations, although I'm afraid of them.  I do know, at least sometimes, how I'm influenced by flesh and blood, and how I'm affected by the passing of certain physical beings who have been essential to me (Charles DeGaulle once said that "Cemetaries the world over are filled with indispensible men," and there's that sic again).  How different life would be if we always had access to those people who were there to help form and shape us.

And yet we are formless shapeshifters ourselves, are we not?  Who was I at 6, or 16, or 36?  Same as I am now?  Not hardly, although the ghosts of my self at various ages still inhabit me somehow, resonating, reflecting, reminding: what was, what might have been, what still could be.  Praps Dickens and Einstein were on to something with the whole past/present/future/always now thing: influences come and go, selves come and go, and what we're left with, along with the hollows and ghosts in our psyches, is that person we face every day in the mirror.  Protean and protein, we stumble through another day, trying to discover our "true" selves, which remain, nimble, elusive and mutable, just beyond our knowing. 

So here are some songs:

The Ghosts That Haunt Me                                                        Crash Test Dummies
The Ghosts Of Saturday Night                                                   Tom Waits
Ghosts                                                                                         John Martyn
Ghost Riders in The Sky                                                            Johnny Cash
Ghost Woman Blues                                                                   The Low Anthem
Ghost Train                                                                                 Marc Cohn
Ghost Train                                                                                 Counting Crows
Ghost Town                                                                                Marc Johnson          
Ghost Town                                                                                Cat Stevens
Ghost Song                                                                                 The Doors
Ghost Of A Chance                                                                    Garland Jeffreys
The Ghost Inside Me                                                                  John Stewart
Ghost In This House                                                                   Allison Krauss/Union Station
Ghost                                                                                          Indigo Girls
The Ghost                                                                                   Fleetwood Mac
Not Fade Away                                                                           Rolling Stones

Zigzagging Through Ghostland                                                 The Radiators
Your Ghost                                                                                  Kristin Hersh
Walking Ghost Blues                                                                  Harry Manx
O Holy Ghost                                                                              Ben Arnold
Not A Robot, But A Ghost                                                          Andrew Bird
Little Ghost                                                                                 The White Stripes
Is There A Ghost                                                                         Band Of Horses
I Don't Stand A Ghost Of A Chance With You                           Chet Baker
Holy Ghost                                                                                   Mavis Staples
Graceful Ghost                                                                             George Winston
Giving Up The Ghost                                                                   Marc Cohn
Ghost Dance                                                                                 Robbie Robertson
Ghost Blues                                                                                  Loudon Wainwright III
Have You Seen Me Lately?                                                          Counting Crows
Time Fades Away                                                                         Neil Young


As Adam might've said, "It's all hollows, Eve...."

3 comments:

  1. Damn son - that's some mighty fine writin' there! You use your keyboard prettier than a twenty dollar whore. Chiaroscuro? Now that's a word and a half.

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  2. Where is "A Ghost is Born" by Wilco? -- that would have added nicely to this list. I agree with the above commenter -- good reflection as usual.

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    1. Well, the song's actually called Theologians, my bad. Rather than delete my above comment, I'll addend this.

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